Strangely Calm

Soundtrack: Nobody can save me now by Linkin Park

With everything that’s been going on the past few weeks, I’m strangely keeping it together. Usually, I cry and get uncontrollably upset, but I find that all the bullshit doesn’t bother me. I’m just unsure if that’s a good thing or a bad thing?

I’m one to lose sleep over things. I think about everything and anything and it can keep my up for hours. You would think that the recent events on the past few weeks would keep me wide awake. But, no. I think I’ve been getting the best sleep I’d had in a long time. With everyone who’s been following, my family and I recently had a giant fall out. I finally laid out everything on the table. I put on my armor and stood up for myself. It felt good to not care for the first time in a long time.

Saturday, I was working my normal 13 hour shift. When Brandon texted me and told me he got free tickets to the All Star race here in Charlotte. Within a minute, I found out Machine Gun Kelly was performing! I girled out lol. I finished my shift, I rushed home, showered and I took an Uber for the first time ever. We had an AMAZING time. There was this great bar area we were hanging out at that had a wonderful view of the track. Then we went to where MGK was going to play. We were right there, almost on the stage and I got amazing videos/pictures. We met some awesome people, I scored from free merchandise and then we walked on home (yes, I live that close to Charlotte Motor speedway..awesome right?)

That was one of the best nights I have had in a very long time. It was free admission, it cost us $20 in beer and a $6 Uber ride. It all worked out and I love when life does that. It’s like a “Hey Jordan! I know shit’s been not going your way for a while, so here’s a bone.” Thanks Life!

I finally got to where work is going great again, I’m starting to feel better and my weight loss is still going pretty well. The only person who can keep my down is me and after almost two months of being down, I’m getting my ass back up because this is life and it sucks sometimes, but then there’s good that happens and that is worth living for.


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